I love Jesus. Its hard to seperate him from other aspects of my life, and I don't think he would want me to. I try everyday, and I fail everyday (somedays way more than others). But he is there, always. I feel like an inadequate loser a lot of the time, but he doesn't think I am. It is hard to remind yourself of that when you look around, taking your eyes off of him, and just looking at what this world has to offer. Years ago, I wanted to try my hand at photography. I just thought I would go ahead and say, God, if this is what you want me to do, let this roll of film come out awesome. TADA! Na-da! Guess what? God apparently said no, I thought. Taking the obvious aside, you know, the very hard work of understanding and practing your craft (a pertinent note here, I had a film camera that was a "good camera", and I am sure that it was, I just never learned how to use it)...He didn't say no, he said just not right now. Fast forward approximately 6 years later ... a tragedy, in my opinion. We lost our daughter. What in the world was I going to do to help myself cope? Most of you know, when she was born, we were recipients of NILMDTS. Both it and she were a spark, a catalyst that God used to push me in this direction. God wasn't saying no, just not right now. How many times does this happen a day. He answers all prayers, but he isn't a genie. He answered my prayer of healing our baby. He healed her better than I could have asked for. She is perfect, with him. It was the start of an amazing journey. I am so thankful for it.
For almost 2 years now, I have been working my tail off to get to where I want to be in photography. And let me say, it has been a very long 2 years. I am nowhere near where I want to be, but I am making strides. Enough to say that I actually enjoy looking at my work now, I am not frustrated by my work, I can finally take pride in it. Knowing that working hard is paying off is one thing. Knowing that God has his hand in it is another. I firmly believe that it is a gift that he has given me to help me heal and be a blessing to others. There is no other explanation to my being able to learn completely on my own, so much in such a short amount of time. Are there days that I have doubt and feel stuck? Of course! Who doesn't? I don't know where I will end up with this, but one thing is for sure. I have been a blessed woman for it, and have had wonderful people put in my life because of it. I pray that I have been a blessing to those I have come in contact with.
My number one job is to be here for my kids and husband. I am humbled and grateful for the ability to be able to enjoy my family and have such a killer job!
May your Christmas be wonderful. May it be a time of reflection, hope, dreams and love. Merry Christmas to your family from mine. Can't wait to kick off a new year! Lots to come!
Much love!
~Brooke~
Southside, Alabama's elite on location custom senior and couples photographer.
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